After countless hours and years of efforts, i recently stopped making music. i recently also changed my preferred name because of the way people treated me, for example, the manager of Europa Cake Shop tried to publicly attack my name on social media after he initially caused problems for me in that shop, but my intentions were good, i had been a loyal customer for many months and had left him plenty of money, and i was not aggressive and did not touch anyone there. many people who i met in life seemed to hate me with an ambiguous negativity, especially when i tried to be kind and true and faithful to them. i even asked that manager if i could work there for free for my first more formal job (because all of the work i do these days is without any earning, because an evil person from the government forbade me from employment, and he was being employed to say it), but after asking to see my resume and then refusing to see my resume, he rejected me very harshly, and i had often visited to have a cafe that would be like a home cafe to me, but also to try to prove myself a trust worthy enough person and loyal customer, that he may accept me - and such is the culture of the people in this place. And though he ran a Polish cake shop and himself was not from Polska, both my parents were.