I would love to hear about you guys' experiences too.
Posted by h_o_rng at 10/05/17 12:15:56I suffer from mainly a family member rationalizing massively:
My fathers one sister lives at a meatfarm, she called a psychiatric hospital on me one day where I was harmed massively spiritually speaking not to mentioned filled with the products of animal experimentation.
My father works at a biotech company producing medicine.
I feel like I am stuck in hell and all at the same time I feel pushed to going to Buddhism. Its weird; my father being a doctor and then moving to that industry and not too long after my mother meeting my father, the mentioned sister of my father ends up moving to a fleshfarm.
It feels as though my parents were put together to breed and this friggin' set up on some creepy spiritual level, me ending up going to Buddhism. As a child wrote some Diamond Tiger stories, if you have heard of Diamond Way Buddhism, then the starter of that is a Danish fella - suddenly I am now living in an area where there is such a center, where I magically ended up which is such a nice place.
However he is getting old and a replacement would be needed, without me being certain its a creepy thought - no thanks.
I mean I would only be taken from the ability to have children and enslaved to have followers - something I find both harmful and am not interested in.
Since going vegan, I have been able to do something about this and can actually talk about it instead of just being driven to it. Its nice to be vegan... It gives me a fighting chance.
Posted by h_o_rng at 10/06/17 07:18:20My apologies yet again, it seems there is more to this than I thought. My mind is being pushed to its edges of what I can take...
I remember having read a place somewhere years ago that Buddhist monks go into the jungle, not afraid of the tigers, as they know they wont be killed as they practice non-killing.
How sad it is to be a semi-Buddhist of carnistic type and be killing every day simply to get that pound of flesh on your place, something not even needed. I mean suddenly that diamond tiger would not be so kind after all and that link between diamond way and diamond tigers turns out to be a little different...
Its not at all nice to be vegan.
Posted by Mountainmystic at 10/06/17 20:19:28I can read about and empathize with what is going on in your mind. Its a very challenging and difficult place to be. Just try to center yourself. Meditation is a good way to do this. Also, you need to do a cleansing if your entire body and mind. Look on tube for guided meditations. Look for one that will cleanse your mind, body, and spirit.